"Serving the Kingdom Through Missions"

That's what the title says on top of my screen as I'm writing this blog. Supposedly, I'm serving the kingdom with my abilities and talents. But today, I really felt that God served, strengthened, and lifted me. How ironic...

Before I start talking about our experiences today, I'll start by explaining my spiritual relationship with God. Weeks earlier, I, along with a couple of strangers, flew to Lenana, Kenya with a non-profit organization. (It's called The Supply Education Group, and they are currently running a campaign to build a high school for the children in Kenya.) There in Kenya, all I saw was 8 ft x 8ft x 8 ft homes cramped with 12 family members. Hundreds of kids running shoeless. Kids starving and begging for the smallest amount of food. But, all I heard was praise. All I heard was laughter. All I saw were smiles and satisfied hearts. I felt God in that place, more than I have in any other place. I've never had my heart feel so heavy... But as I left and came back to America, my relationship with God weakened incredibly. This loss made me feel so lonely, and to compensate, I started filling myself with worldly things. But they never satisfied like He does....

So then I came down to Alabama, and we, as an unified missions team, woke up at 2 AM, and dragged ourselves down to Alabama to the safehaven of AIM. I felt weak and tired, not ready to serve Him, to be a vessel of His love. But we moved out to a man's property, deciding to help move the trees. Although this job was tedious and strenuous, I felt stronger. My heart felt a little heavier. My vision of God became a little clearer. 

One thing that was made clear to me was that I am strongest, when I am the weakest.